~Diary~

Wednesday 6th May, 2026

     I SEWED! YOU HEAR THAT EVERYONE? I GOT TO SEW SOMETHING!! But I'm never using that pattern again haha It was one of the most painful patterns I've ever had to work with. But I'm just happy after years, I finally got to sew something new. I've been thinking about my website a lot, thinking what I feel like adding to it... but all the ideas require so much time and resources that I just don't have right now. I'm jobless and facing homelessness, so getting that all sorted is the number one priority. My daughter is with her dad for the time being and I miss her like crazy, I'm going to visit in about a week but only for a short while sadly. Everything that's been going on has beaten my body so severely and my panic disorder has made a reappearance so now I have that to contend with as well. I don't mean to be negative on here all of the time, but things in life are just really rough right now but I doubt I'm the only one. Anyhow, I saw a rainbow today and it was a spectacular one at that. And I've been waiting for my next rainbow sighting for a while ever since I got the idea to make my rainbow log page! Pinterest has been a solace and an escape for me recently, low stimulation but still gets the dopamine going haha I've been saving a lot more things to do with natural medicines and witchcraft lately, I'm thinking I may give it a go at some stage and see if that is a good fit for me. But I do worry that I'm way too logic pilled to go down any road of spirituality... either way, I think some ritual in my life might be good and fun too.

Monday 23rd March, 2026

     My goodness the world just keeps on getting better doesn't it? I love fuel prices rising so high that eventually I won't be able to afford to leave my house except in extreme emergencies. I think it's time to be trying to grow our own food crops, cause the price of fresh food is only going to go up as well. I need to learn some frugal cooking recipes and techniques, they'll come in handy even if the crisis doesn't get worse. More positively, I'm working on a dress for my daughter this week, I promised her by the time she came back from her dad's that it'd be ready. She's so excited for it and picked out the fabric herself, it was a discounted Halloween quilting fabric with purple and green background and spiders all over it. After it was bought she kept asking me when her spider dress would be ready, I love my little Halloween obsessed child.  

Wednesday 11th March, 2026

     Okay okay, I feel like I owe you guys an entry to say that I'm 100% good! I know my last one was a bit concerning, but everything got sorted in the end. I did go out, didn't end up too messy, but ended up with food poisoning from one of the dessert places I ordered from that night. So that was great haha But dealing with rejection sensitive dysphoria mixed with a limerence state is the most impossible thing ever... I hate that I'm sometimes like this. Luckily for me I have a very understanding (albeit dumb idiot) boyfriend, we worked through things and I've gained new confidence. Yay!

Friday 20th February, 2026

    Hahahaaaaa, god. A little bit of a ranty entry but this is my diary soooooo. I mean traditionally diaries are private but if I don't scream into the void where at least one person might see and relate then writing this down does me no good. Overall this week was... shitty. I was on such a high from last weekend and then I got my period, (which yay I don't usually get cause of bc but I ran out so decided to let it come) so with that came all the emotional garbage, the pining, etc. All I wanted all week was some cuddles and comfort so I couldn't WAIT until today when I finally get that chance. Yeah, not happening this weekend apparently. SO instead I'm going out with my best friend who I haven't gotten to hang out with one-on-one in aaaages. We're gonna go eat, I'm gonna maybe have another cry and hopefully forget about the emotional mess that this week has been.

Sunday 15th February, 2026

    AAAAAAA Valentine's Day! I had such a wonderful Valentine's day. On the 13th I went out to a fancy dinner with my boyfriend for his birthday, it was a pretty rainy night so we headed home after that. The day after we had home baked cheesecake (made by meeeee) and exchanged presents~ I got him a new wallet and he got me a weighted possum plushie and a lego set. Then that night we went out for sushi and karaoke with friends, I honestly wished I had more energy to have a truly reckless weekend but this was still super fun and I love my boyfriend so so so much.

Friday 16th January, 2026

    Wow so much for keeping a regular diary haha. Soooo many things have happened since I last wrote here, I got married to my boyfriend, we had a baby, and then got divorced and I moved to the opposite side of the country. It was a whole giant mess. But we're on good terms now and we coparent our daughter, who's two years old now and she's so so cute and smart. I love her so much. So most of my time over the years has been spent with trying to be a good wife, then mother and now single mother... so I haven't had a lot of time for much else. I really want to get back into creative things, updating my site, sewing, all the stuff I used to enjoy. I want to network again, meet cool people, make a life for myself in a new place. I actually feel like my life is on a good trajectory, I have friends who support me and want to see me succeed and I have a kid who loves me to pieces. Even though life hasn't turned out how I thought it would once I started a family, I'm still pretty happy. :)

Monday 14th December, 2020

    First diary entry~ I had a fantastic but tiring weekend, met my boyfriend's family on Saturday and caught up with my sewing group on Sunday. Saturday was great, I had put my hair in pincurls and curlers the night before which worked okay, the pincurls were great as usual but some of my hair from the curlers straightened over the course of the day. I wore a vintage 1950's dress that I found for $10 last year at a vintage warehouse sale with some vintage gloves, pearl necklace and earrings. I'm sure I looked much too dressed up but I felt good and my bf thought I looked amazing so that's all that matters. The drive up there took about an hour and a half since we met up in the countryside, but the weather was lovely so it was a pleasant day but I was so tired afterwards. On Sunday I went to my friends house for a few hours to chat with my historical sewing group, I got to see her little boy who has just turned one year old and he's quite a charmer, very adorable. After discovering that there was a rabbit in the back yard, me and my younger friend went outside to spend some time with him, feeding him daisies and strawberry heads while listening to the beautiful song of a whistler bird in the tree above. It was very calming and I wish every afternoon could be spent in such a wonderful mood. After all of that my bf picked me up and took me back to his house where I had dinner and a much needed nap before going home.